Now I ain’t saying there is no God he says fact is there’s a road a man goes down and if you’ve heard it the Jesus story you see how it’s an example to us what God is what time is that there’s compassion in reason in the simulacrum of the sacrifice conquering death and yes someday maybe someday soon the bridegroom will come and we will be married in that banquet of heaven we will see time in the bed of our desires how consciousness is tied to our sensations and this is what attaches us to the world what we always feared the good the evil how they became one or the other depending on your world the hubris of thinking you know what that is and maybe the only peace bowing at your women’s feet in this world and the next in all possible worlds—you know—to make the best of it…  but it don’t matter because there’s still that same road it’s just in some worlds I don’t go straight on through and so maybe I oughta ask you—are ya saved?  Maybe in this’n you are in another one you ain’t and it’s infinite you see all the possible choices the directions it may go and hell even maybe even God don’t know it all not every moment just time before and after before there ever was a before and after and then there’s me and I start as a name and form and then my senses perceive and I have consciousness subject to the law of determined causes and I see the anguish of my freedom still yet in the ambiguity that I am both a negative and a positive and I am ignorant I know nothing except that I must become God but I am either too big or too little to see how one thing leads to another…  I’m evil he says no doubt about it—I have no faith in cause and effect…

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