INT. ALTON PSYCHIATRIC WARD—CHRISTMAS DAY 2007

Willie has finished his Twix.  He’s propped in his bed.  You can’t tell if he ate the right one or the left one first as he sweeps away the crumbs on his pajamas.  Marcus has decided to lay down.  He lies on his bed looking up at the ceiling almost wondering why they have you do it.  Why some psychiatrists have you lay down to tell your story.

WILLIE

There’s a lot you can get away with, however, when you indulge in it, in time, you don’t get away with anything…  I used to live.  I didn’t ask of time to fill it.  But maybe my ambition was more than my talent…  You can run around crazy in here.  Nobody’s gonna care.  That’s why you can get away with a lot.  The secret is people don’t really know, and if they do you have nothing to hide…  Yeah you can get away with a lot.  My wife oughta know.

MARCUS

I used to live too old man…  Doesn’t seem that long ago, but when I pick a date something that happened a month ago doesn’t seem like me anymore.  More like somethin’ earthbound like a balloon that’s lost its air.  But you know what it held once.  You can look back and say I did that.  Just don’t matter here…

WILLIE

No here’s where it matters most.  Here’s where they don’t let you get away with it.  They let you, but you don’t get away with anything.  It’s free up to a point.  It’s free up to when you realize you ain’t free at all.  When you realize they control the time…  Look at Wilhelmina in 2B.  She won’t eat.  Anorexic.  Eighty years old and weighs eighty pounds but she won’t eat.  Eats toilet paper instead.  And they let her they can’t really stop her.  So she’s free.  She’s free up to the point when she takes responsibility, but nobody can make her do that.  Not even her no more.  That’s as free as free can get.  That’s why it’s here where it matters most—what they know.  Pretty soon that’s the only sane thought you have left—what they don’t.  What you know.  What’s yours.

MARCUS

They don’t know what happened that day.  I told’em but they weren’t there.  They only know what I told’em and what they think they know I didn’t.  But they weren’t there…

WILLIE

Yeah and you ain’t them neither.  You see you bring yourself and it makes you so damn deaf and dumb you can’t feel nothin’ less you make them somehow.  You make them feel and see themselves in you.  And that’s what’s easy.  That’s what you can get away with, but in doing it they don’t see you at all…  That’s why you lose everything getting away with it.  That’s the price of being free…

MARCUS

Maybe I’m just afraid.  Afraid of what I could have done, but didn’t…  I shouldn’t have let her go in.  Just because they took the money and there was nothin’ in the box I shouldn’t have let talk me in to goin’ into there…  They still got away with it.  They never put nothin’ in the box.  And we didn’t leave the way we came…

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